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Venus As A Boy

The Root of All Fear

The craving to become causes fears; to be, to achieve, and so to depend engenders fear. The state of nonfear is not negation, it is not the opposite of fear nor is it courage. In understanding the cause of fear, there is its cessation, not the becoming courageous, for in all becoming there is the seed of fear. Dependence on things, on people, or on ideas breeds  fear; dependence arises from ignorance, from the lack of self-knowledge, from inward poverty; fear causes uncertainty of mind-heart, preventing communication and understanding. Through self-awareness we begin to discover and so comprehend the cause of fear, not only the superficial but the deep causal and accumulative fears. Fear is both inborn and acquired; it is related to the past, and to free thought-feeling from it, the past must be comprehended through the present. The past is ever wanting to give birth to the present which becomes the identifying memory of the "me" and the &quo…

Ancient Forms of Communication

The Disorder That Times Creates

Time means moving from what is to "what should be." I am afraid, but one day I shall be free of fear; therefore, time is necessary to be free of hear -- at least, that is what we think. To change what is to "what should be" involves time. Now, time implies effort that interval between what is and "what should be." I don't like fear, and I am going to make an effort to understand, to analyze, to dissect it, or I am going to discover the cause of it, or I am going to escape totally from it. All this implies effort -- and effort is what we are used to. We are always in conflict between what is and "what should be." The "what I should be" is an idea, and the idea is fictitious, it is not "what I am, " which is the fact ; and the "what I am" can be changed only when I understand the disorder that time creates.

 . . . So, is it possible for me to be ride of fear totally, complet…

Face-to-Face with the Fact

Are we afraid of a fact or of an idea about the fact? Are we afraid of the thing as it is, or are we afraid of what we think it is? Take death, for example. Are we afraid of the fact of death or of the idea of death? The fact is one thing and the idea about the fact is another. Am I afraid of the word death or of the fact itself? Because I am afraid of the word, of the idea, I never understand the fact, I never look at the fact, I am never in direct relation with the fact. It is only when I am in complete communion with the fact that there is no fear. If I am not in communion with the fact, then there is fear, and there is no communion with the fact so long as I have an idea, an opinion, a theory, about the fact; so I have to be very clear whether I am afraid of the word, the idea, or the fact. If I am face-to-face with the fact, there is nothing to understand about it: the fact is there, and I can deal with it. If I am afraid of the word, then I must understand the word, go into th…

❀✦ 100th Post!!! ✦ ❀

☂ It's a rainy day here in Detroit. . My mood matches it very well.  I guess this is just one of those weeks, where everything seems so go left instead of right. I consult the I Ching daily and here is what I got for today:
In the face of rising tension, keep still. By constantly renewing your humility, neutrality, and innocence, you make steady gains. 
A steadfast modesty and acceptance, whether external conditions are good or bad, is the mark of the superior person. ☮
Those words reassure me of the power that I have over my situations; which is my attitude. How I view what is happening and act from there is totally up to me, and I've decided to remain calm and at peace. The exterior is not the deciding factor of our lives.

A few days ago this article was shared with me. I wanted to share it again because:

1) Christopher Jarvis [Ancient Language] is one …

▨►The Door To Understanding◄▧

You cannot wipe away fear without understanding, without actually seeing into the nature of time, which means thought, which means word. From that arises the question: Is there a thought without word, is there a thinking without the word which is memory? Without seeing the nature of the mind, the movement of the mind, the process of self-knowing, merely saying that I must be free of it, has very little meaning. You have to take fear in the context of the whole of the mind. To see, to go into all this, you need energy. Energy does not come through eating food -- that is a part of physical necessity. But to see, in the sense I am using that word, requires an enormous energy; and that energy is dissipated when you are battling with words, when you are resisting, condemning, when you are full of opinions which are preventing you from looking, seeing -- your energy is all gone in that. So in the consideration of this perception, this seeing, again you open the door.

 Today I would like …

Dealing with Fear

One is afraid of public opinion, afraid of not achieving, not fulfilling, afraid of not having the opportunity; and through it all there is this extraordinary sense of guilt -- one has done a thing that one should not have done; the send of guilt in the very act of doing; one is healthy and others are poor and unhealthy; one has food and others have no food. The more the mind is inquiring, penetrating, asking, the greater the sense of guilt, anxiety. . . Fear is the urge that seeks a Master, a guru; fear is this coating of respectability, which everyone loves so dearly -- to be respectable. Do you determine to be courageous to face events in life, or merely rationalize fear away, or find explanations that will give satisfaction to the mind that is caught in fear? How do you deal with it? Turn on the radio, read a book, go to a temple, cling to some form of dogma, belief?

Fear is the destructive energy in man. It withers the mind, it distorts thought, it leads to all kinds of extra…

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There Is No Such Thing As Living Alone
There is no such thing as living alone, for all living is relationship; but to live without direct relationship demands high intelligence, a swifter and greater awareness for self-discovery. A "lone" existence, without this keen and flowing awareness, strengthens the already dominant tendencies, thus causing unbalance, distortion. It is now that one has to become aware of the set and peculiar habits of thought-feeling which come with age, and by understanding them make away with them. Inward riches alone bring peace and joy.
Freedom from Fear 3/22/2015
Is it possible for the mind to empty itself totally of fear? Fear of any kind breeds illusion. Where there is fear there is obviously no freedom, and without freedom there is no love at all. And most of us have some form of fear; fear of darkness, fear of physical pain, fear of public opinion and so on.
So, what is important is to be aware of the whole process of oneself, to observe, …

You and I Are the Problem, Not the World

OHHCUTURE The world is not something separate from you and me; the world, society, is the relationship that we establish or seek to establish between each other. So you and I are the problem, and not the world, because the world is the projection of ourselves, and to understand the world we must understand ourselves. That world is not separate from us; we are the world, and our problems are the world's problems. HOPPING IN BLACK W/ CREEPERS

Being Related


Without relationship, there is no existence: to be is to be related. . . Most of us do not seem to realize this -- that the world is my relationship with others, whether one or many. What I am, that I project, and obviously, if I do not understand myself, the whole of relationship is one of confusion in ever-widening circles. So, relationship becomes a extraordinary importance, not with the so-called mass, the crowd, but in the world of family and friends, however small that may be. In a world of vast organizations, vast mobilizations of people, mass movements, we are afraid to act on a small scale; we are afraid to be little people clearing up our own patch. We say to ourselves, "What can I personally do? I must join a mass movement in order to reform."

On the contrary, real revolution takes revaluation of relationship -- that alone is real reformation, a radical, continuous revolution. We are afraid to begin on a small scale. Because the problem is so vast, we thin…

We Are That Which We Possess

To understand relationship, there must be a passive awareness, which does not destroy relationship. On the contrary, it makes relationship much more vital, much more significant. Then there is in that relationship a possbility of real affection; there is a warmth, a sense of nearness, which is not mere sentiment or sensation. And if we can so approach or be in that relationship to everything, then our problems will be easily solved -- the problems of property, the problems of possession. Because, we are that which we possess. The man who possesses money is the money. The man who identifies himself with property is the property, or the house, or the furniture. Similarly with ideas, or with people; and when there is possessiveness, there is no relationship. But most of us possess because we have nothing else, if we do not possess. We are empty shells if we do not possess, if we do not fill our life with furniture, with music, with knowledge, with this or that. And that shell makes…

New Ancient Language Release: ۞ Totem ۞

The image you have about a person, the image you have about your politicians, the prime minister, your god, your wife, your children -- that image is being looked at. And that image has been created through your relationship, or through your fears, or through your hopes. The sexual and other pleasures you have had with your wife, your husband, the anger, the flattery, the comfort, and all the things that your family life brings -- a deadly life it is -- have created an image about your wife or husband. With that image you look. Similarly, your wife or husband has an image about you. So the relationship between or husband, between you and the politician is really the relationship between these two images. Right? That is a fact. How can two images which are the result of thought, of pleasure and so on, have any affection or love? So the relationship between two individuals, very close together or very far, is a relationship of images, symbols, memories. And in that, how can there …

How Can There Be Real Love?

The image you have about a person, the image you have about your politicians, the prime minister, your god, your wife, your children -- that image is being looked at. And that image has been created through your hopes. The sexual and other pleasures you have had with your wife, your husband, the anger, the flattery, the comfort, and all the things that your family life brings -- a deadly life it is -- have created an image about your husband or wife. With that image you look. Similarly, your wife or husband has an image about you. So the relationship between you and your wife or husband, between you and the politician is really the relationship between these two images. Right? That is a fact. How can two images which are really the result of thought, of pleasure and so on, have any affection or love? So the relationship between two individuals, very close together or very far, is a relationship of images, symbols, memories. And in that, how can there be real love?

For The Weekend, xo

This week has been hectic. Between applying for a new position with a promising company, studying, comforting and caring for my 6 month old, and remaining balanced with my weekly objectives, I don't know where or how I managed to stop and catch a breath. I've tried my best to not allow stress to get the best of me, and have succeeded to the best of my ability. Things like the reading, daily affirmations and staying focused on daily goals assist me in doing so. This week during one of my reading sessions I discovered a couple of quotes that I would love to share with you all.

 "Give, and it will be given to you. . .for by your standard of measure it will be measured to you in return." Every action giving creates an opposite action of receiving and what you received is always equal to what you've given. Whatever you give out in life must return to you. It is the physics and the mathematics of the Universe. Life doesn't just "happen" to you; you rece…

Craving Is Always Craving

To avoid suffering we cultivate detachment. Being forewarned that attachment sooner or later entails sorrow, we want to become detached. Attachment is gratifying, but perceiving the pain in it, we want to be gratified in another manner, through detachment. Detachment is the same as attachment as long as it yields gratification. So what we are really seeking is gratification; we crave to be satisfied by whatever means.

We are dependent or attached because it gives us pleasure, security, power, a sense of well-being, though in it there is sorrow and fear. We seek detachment also for pleasure, in order not to be hurt, not to be inwardly wounded. Our search is for pleasure, gratification. Without condemning or justifying we must try to understand this process, for unless we understand it there is no way out of our confusion and contradiction. Can craving ever be satisfied, or is it a bottomless pit? Whether we crave for the low or the high, craving is always craving, a burning fire, an…

To Be Alone

To be alone, which is not a philosophy of loneliness, is obviously to be in a sate of revolution against the whole setup of society- not only this society, but the communist society, the fascist, every form of society as organized brutality, organized power. And that means an extraordinary perception of the effects of power. Sir, have you noticed those soldiers rehearsing? They are not human beings any more, they are machines, they are your sons and my sons, standing there in the sun. This is happening here, in America, in Russia, and everywhere- not only at the governmental level, but also at the monastic level, belonging to monasteries, to orders, to groups who employ astonishing power. And it is only the mind which does not belong that can be a lone. And aloneness is not something to be cultivated. You see this? When you see all this, you are out, and no governor or president is going to invite you to dinner. Out of that aloneness there is humility. It is man, religious or ordinary…

Attachment is Escape

Just try to be aware of your conditioning. You can only know it indirectly, in relation to something else. You cannot be aware of your conditioning as an abstraction, for then it is merely verbal, without much significance. We are only aware of conflict. Conflict exists when there is no integration between challenge and response. This conflict is the result of our conditioning. Conditioning is attachment; attachment to work, to tradition, to property, to people, to ideas, and so on. If there were no attachment, would there be conditioning? Of course not. So through identification with it I become somebody. I identify myself with my work, and the work becomes important. I am my family, my property; I am attached to them. The object of attachment offers me the means to escape from my own emptiness. Attachment is escape, and it is escape that strengthens conditioning.

Chicago, IL - MIDWAVE

Last week I got the opportunity to discover some really good new music. This Chicago duo  MIDWAVE, deliversindie dance, rock/pop music and  definitely have a well-rounded roster of remixes and original music under their belts. With official remixes for TV MANIA, Phantogram and PYYRAMIDS you will soon discover that these guys are no rookies. I've had the opportunity to talk to Kyle Brauch from this Chicago duo. Their most recent project, a self-titled EP mostly produced, mixed & mastered by Dan Konopka of OK Go, features the single "Up All Night".
"Up All Night", directed by Brandon Mackey, was also nominated for 'Best Music Video' at the 2014 Naperville Independent Film Festival. The band's full EP is available on iTunes, Amazon and most major digital retailers.
Below you will find two tracks that I personally resonated with and links to all of their sites! 
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Face the Fact and See What Happens . . .

We have all had the experience of tremendous loneliness, where books, religion, everything is gone and we are tremendously, inwardly, lonely, empty. Most of us can't face that emptiness, that loneliness, and we run away from it. Dependence is one of the things we run to, depend on, because we can't stand being alone with ourselves. We must have the radio or books or talking, incessant chatter about this and that, about art and culture. So we come to that point when we know there is this extraordinary sense of self-isolation. We may have a very good job, work furiously, write books, but inwardly there is this tremendous vacuum. We want to fill that and dependence is one of the ways. We use dependence, amusement, church work, religions, drink, women, a dozen thingd to fill it up, cover it up. If we see that absolutely futile to try to cover it up, completely futile-- not verbally, not with conviction and therefore agreement and determination- but if  we see the total absurdity o…

Attachment is Self-Deception

We are the things we possess, we are that to which we are attached. Attachment has no nobility. Attachment to knowledge is not different from any other gratifying addiction.. Attachment is self-absorption, whether at the lowest or at the highest level. It is an escape from the hollowness of the self. The things to which we are attached- property, people, ideas- become all-important, for without the many things which fill its emptiness, the self is not. The fear of not being make for possession; and fear breeds illusion, the bondage to conclusions. Conclusions, material or ideational, prevent the fruition of intelligence, the freedom in which alone reality can come into being; and without this freedom, cunning is taken for intelligence. The ways of cunning are always complex and destructive. It is self-protective cunning that makes for attachment; and when attachment causes pain, it is this same cunning that seeks detachment and finds pleasure in the pride and vanity of renunciatio…

International Women's Day

March 7, 2015 To Exploit Is to Be Exploited
As most of us seek power in one form or another, the hierarchical principle is established, the novice and the initiate, the pupil and the Master, and even among the Masters there are degrees of spiritual growth. Most of us love to exploit and be exploited, and this system offers the means, whether hidden or open. To exploit is to be exploited. The desire to use others for your psychological necessities makes for dependence, and when you depend you must hold, possess; and what you possess possesses you. 
Without dependence, subtle or gross, without possessing things, people, and ideas, you are empty, a thing of no importance. You want to be something, and to avoid the gnawing fear of being nothing you belong to this or that organization, to this or that ideology, to this church or that temple; so you are exploited, and you in your turn exploit. 

March 8, 2015 The Cultivation of Detachment
There is only attachment, there is no such thing as deta…

Moxie Ique

This week I've had the opportunity to reconnect with a High School friend, Moxie Ique, who has turned out to be a skillful photographer/ visual artist. I haven't had the opportunity to meet with her in person, and intend to, but what she has shared with me over the last few days is not only engaging, but inspiring.
Her images are very intimate, vivid in color and in my opinion, lure you into a fascinating realm of this digital age. Her work speaks so much to me and I am glad we reconnected, in hopes of working together soon.
Here is a little information about her and what she does: 

How would you describe your theme and approach when you are shooting?
My theme for my photography I suppose, is whatever I am feeling. What I am going through at a moment in my life shows itself in my work. My early photography is often black and white or sepia. I use a lot of  value and chiaroscuro. I also softened my photos which gave them a sort of haze.
At this point my moods were a bit somber and q…

Become Deeply Aware [ ☯ ] Relationship

Become Deeply Aware
March 4, 2015

Dependence sets going the movement of aloofness and attachment, a constant conflict without comprehension, without a release. You must become aware of the process of attachment and dependence, become aware of it without condemnation, without judgement, and then you will perceive the significance of this conflict of opposites. If you become deeply aware and consciously direct thought to comprehend the full meaning of need, of dependence, your conscious mind will be open and clear about it; and then the subconscious, with its hidden motives, pursuits, and intentions, will project itself into the conscious. When this happens, you must study and understand each intimation of the subconscious. If you do this many times, becoming aware of the projections of the subconscious after the conscious has thought out the problem clearly as possible, then, even though you give your attention to other matters, the conscious and the subconscious will work out the probl…

Lion Song [ March ]

Good Morning to you all! I am excited to be making this post today, on my 1 year Anniversary with Christopher Jarvis. This man has supported me through so much over the last year, filled all of my days with love and inspiration, empowered me to be so much better and work hard to accomplish the goals I desire to achieve. Each day he offers me advice and suggestions that I know will shape me into a even more dynamic being. Forever thanking you for all your positive energy and light.
Above is a remix done by him of Bjork's "Lionsong". Please enjoy! March Dependence~ Attachment~ Relationship~ FearMarch 1, 2015
A Free Mind Has Humility
Have you ever gone into the question of psychological dependence? If you go into it very deeply, you will find that most of us are terribly lonely. Most of us have such shallow, empty minds. Most of us do not know what love means. So, out of that loneliness, out of that insufficiency, out of the privation of life, we are attached to something, …