The Disorder That Times Creates
Time means moving from what is to "what should be." I am afraid, but one day I shall be free of fear; therefore, time is necessary to be free of hear -- at least, that is what we think. To change what is to "what should be" involves time. Now, time implies effort that interval between what is and "what should be." I don't like fear, and I am going to make an effort to understand, to analyze, to dissect it, or I am going to discover the cause of it, or I am going to escape totally from it. All this implies effort -- and effort is what we are used to. We are always in conflict between what is and "what should be." The "what I should be" is an idea, and the idea is fictitious, it is not "what I am, " which is the fact ; and the "what I am" can be changed only when I understand the disorder that time creates.
. . . So, is it possible for me to be ride of fear totally, completely, on the instant? If I allow fear to continue, I will create disorder all the time; therefore, one sees that time is an element of disorder, not a means to be ultimately free of fear. So there is no gradual process of getting rid of fear, just as there is no gradual process of getting rid of the poison of nationalism. If you have nationalism and you say that eventually there will be the brotherhood of man, in the interval there are wars, there are hatreds, there is misery, there is all the appalling division between man and man; therefore, time is creating disorder.
How Do I Look at Anger?
Obviously, I look at it as an observer being angry. I say, "I am angry." At the moment of anger there is no "I"; the "I" comes in immediately afterwards -- which means time. Can I look at the fact without the factor of time, which is the thought, which is the word? This happens when there is the looking without the observer. See where it had led me. I now begin to perceive a way of looking -- perceiving without the opinion, the conclusion, without condemning, judging. Therefore, I perceive that there can be "seeing" without thought, which is the word. So the mind is beyond the clutches of ideas, of the conflict of duality and all the rest of it. So, can I look at fear not as an isolated fact?
If you isolate a fact that has not opened the door to the whole universe of the mind, then let us go back to the fact and begin again by taking another fact so that you yourself will begin to see the extraordinary thing of the mind, so that you have the key, you can open the door, you can burst into that . . .
. . . By considering fear --- the fear of death, the fear of the neighbor, the fear of your spouse dominating over you, you know the whole business of domination -- will that open the door? That is all that matters -- not how to be free of it -- because the moment you open the door, fear is completely wiped away. The mind is the result of time, and time is the word -- how extraordinary to think of it! Time is thought; it is thought that breeds fear, it is thought that breeds the fear of death; and it is time which is thought, that has in its hand the whole intricacies and the subtleties of fear.